So I decided to write another blog crazy I know but hear me out no really reads these so I will probably just end up bitching anyway.
I recently decided to watch the show Manswers, oh my god. It was one of those shows where all I could think was who's idea is this. I think it would be better suited as one of those websites like ebaumsworld.
On Saturday I talked to you know who. It was a mistake I did feel better but that is only because I got to let off a little bit of steam. It does really upset me though that someone is unphased by something that devastates me. This and the fact they seem to enjoy ignoring me and telling me things they come threw on. I don't think I would feel nearly as bad if I just had someone to spend time with but I don't. I can talk to a few people but it is pretty pointless I get blown off or they make me feel like I am the biggest creeper on the planet.
I recently got to talk with one of my real friends John. It was actually really nice to have a conversation with him. That really made me miss the school year when I had crew. It does bum me out when I think about it though because I am really only in it to row like the people there seem to be too much in a click to be real friends. I can see in a few years that I will probably end up not seeing or talking to most of them. Like what happened in High School Football.
I finished watching Spaced, let me just say it was an awesome show kinda reminded me of my life. I watched an episode of Breaking Bad, I liked it it is on my list to watch now.
Well I am going to try to sleep now wish me luck.
Monday, July 13, 2009
Thursday, July 9, 2009
About time
So I figure I have alot on my mind might as well right it down because I can't seem to find someone to talk to this stuff about.
First off on my list I am currently talking to someone who I never really talk to. We used to have a thing then they got kind of weird. Anyways all they seem to want to do is bitch about whats wrong in there life. It is pretty boring and random my boyfriend references but meh what are you gonna do.
Second so I was reading something I knew I shouldn't have a note written by shannon on facebook. It said Are you single? and her response was ...kind for now. At that moment it was just like uh... really. So yeah I have a feeling that I am going to want to hate the world even more in a matter of weeks or so. I just hate how this whole thing is going and how shitty it is making me feel. At least for a small period of time I had a friend who would talk to her for me.
Third on my list music. So as of late I have been trying to find new bands and stuff to hear. So far I have found some bitch'n tunes. First off I will go with Mew a Danish alternative band who aparently are amazing live. Next would be Nero http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rFVLAQWPBCI they are drum and bass I just like this tune. Then there is The Hoosiers with worried about ray, I found them due to Muselive stating the keyboardist was wearing spiderman at a live preformance like Dom used to. Then of course Pendulum there latest cover of calvin harris-Im not alone, I love that song listen to it love it. A band I just started to listen to Karnivool is sounding really good i need to get through there cd though i have not had the time yet.
Oh before I finish I think I was approached for a booty call but then she was like wait I have parents here maybe later this week. Personally I think she is just mad at her current estranged boyfriend. I also got invited to an event with her too but again all her friends would be there and I would find that a bit strange since i know no one.
I have got to figure out something that will work for me. Right now I am just so damn depressed all the time. Its like fuck I have friends we don't do much together but I have them. Its like I have alot of friends that I am not close with and like maybe 1 or 2 best friends but they are either too busy for me or just too well interesting of a character. I am getting really tired of being the nice guy just being like oh ok you are busy now or yeah we should definatly do something then getting blown off till they are like oh yeah we were suppose to hang. I am just like yeah I know just see me or don't tell me you want to and get my hopes up and waste my breath and time on you.
That last bit was a bit rantish anyways I should go to bed have to wake up to drive back to Howell have a guy hook up cable. Hopefully I can talk to him about getting an Iphone too I am curious if i want to take that plunge
First off on my list I am currently talking to someone who I never really talk to. We used to have a thing then they got kind of weird. Anyways all they seem to want to do is bitch about whats wrong in there life. It is pretty boring and random my boyfriend references but meh what are you gonna do.
Second so I was reading something I knew I shouldn't have a note written by shannon on facebook. It said Are you single? and her response was ...kind for now. At that moment it was just like uh... really. So yeah I have a feeling that I am going to want to hate the world even more in a matter of weeks or so. I just hate how this whole thing is going and how shitty it is making me feel. At least for a small period of time I had a friend who would talk to her for me.
Third on my list music. So as of late I have been trying to find new bands and stuff to hear. So far I have found some bitch'n tunes. First off I will go with Mew a Danish alternative band who aparently are amazing live. Next would be Nero http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rFVLAQWPBCI they are drum and bass I just like this tune. Then there is The Hoosiers with worried about ray, I found them due to Muselive stating the keyboardist was wearing spiderman at a live preformance like Dom used to. Then of course Pendulum there latest cover of calvin harris-Im not alone, I love that song listen to it love it. A band I just started to listen to Karnivool is sounding really good i need to get through there cd though i have not had the time yet.
Oh before I finish I think I was approached for a booty call but then she was like wait I have parents here maybe later this week. Personally I think she is just mad at her current estranged boyfriend. I also got invited to an event with her too but again all her friends would be there and I would find that a bit strange since i know no one.
I have got to figure out something that will work for me. Right now I am just so damn depressed all the time. Its like fuck I have friends we don't do much together but I have them. Its like I have alot of friends that I am not close with and like maybe 1 or 2 best friends but they are either too busy for me or just too well interesting of a character. I am getting really tired of being the nice guy just being like oh ok you are busy now or yeah we should definatly do something then getting blown off till they are like oh yeah we were suppose to hang. I am just like yeah I know just see me or don't tell me you want to and get my hopes up and waste my breath and time on you.
That last bit was a bit rantish anyways I should go to bed have to wake up to drive back to Howell have a guy hook up cable. Hopefully I can talk to him about getting an Iphone too I am curious if i want to take that plunge
Sunday, May 31, 2009
Suprises
Hi all, so I am writing this blog for 2 reasons.
1. I am slightly inspired because I uploaded 2 for Claire today
2. Certain people are really pushing me
So first up what is currently bugging me a shit ton. So today I finally logged onto AIM for the first time in well a long time. I decided to talk to what I would consider a friend that I used to know. I say hi, I leave since it took a few min to respond. I get a text due to AIM mobile saying are you there? I say yeah whats up. Next thing I know it is something along the line of this is Brighton PD I don't appreciate talking to a girl who is a high school senior. I then reply sorry I didn't remember who this was. I find it very dumb for the fact I am still 20 they are 18 almost 19 and they have graduated and are going to go to central. Second of all it was a lie because they live in Howell and went to school in Heartland. So yeah I am defiantly not going to talk to anyone I used to on AIM ever. Skype is where its at anyways.
I finally broke down today and said everything i think that needed to be said. Saying goodbye was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I really hope she knows that. Hopefully there will be some event that brings us back but till that day I will be waiting.
I know tomorrow will be a great day because I am putting all the rest of this behind me. All the shit friends, all of the bad luck, screw it I know there is some good out there I just need to find it.
1. I am slightly inspired because I uploaded 2 for Claire today
2. Certain people are really pushing me
So first up what is currently bugging me a shit ton. So today I finally logged onto AIM for the first time in well a long time. I decided to talk to what I would consider a friend that I used to know. I say hi, I leave since it took a few min to respond. I get a text due to AIM mobile saying are you there? I say yeah whats up. Next thing I know it is something along the line of this is Brighton PD I don't appreciate talking to a girl who is a high school senior. I then reply sorry I didn't remember who this was. I find it very dumb for the fact I am still 20 they are 18 almost 19 and they have graduated and are going to go to central. Second of all it was a lie because they live in Howell and went to school in Heartland. So yeah I am defiantly not going to talk to anyone I used to on AIM ever. Skype is where its at anyways.
I finally broke down today and said everything i think that needed to be said. Saying goodbye was one of the hardest things I have ever had to do. I really hope she knows that. Hopefully there will be some event that brings us back but till that day I will be waiting.
I know tomorrow will be a great day because I am putting all the rest of this behind me. All the shit friends, all of the bad luck, screw it I know there is some good out there I just need to find it.
Monday, April 27, 2009
Radda Radda (sneak peak)
So finally got around to listening to some old stuff that most people have not heard of. Econoline Crush totally forgot about them I used to listen to there mp3s all the time which were like impossible to find by the way. This is something for me to look for at Flat Black and Circular. I will probably write more later so yeah preview.
Sunday, April 5, 2009
Almost Easy
So where to start this one at. I will go with this weekend.
Friday was pretty uneventful it was mostly wake up crew, sleep, class, crew, sleep early because I am a driver. So yeah whoever decided that we had to leave at 3 am to go to Ohio is crazy. So I got up to drive very early and I actually made it all the way to Columbus without any assistance from energy drinks or 5 hour stuff. Racing was well let me be blunt not good. This is just me speaking about my boats but coach has this tendency to put me in one boat that he knows will not do well but its whats best for the program. Example V8-2 with this you think oh another varsity 8 with some varsity and best novice. But the boat is always second string novice with a few left over varsity and its never good and usually gets flat out embarrassed. I am also in the varsity 4 which is a great boat 3 of us have been rowing it for a whole year. The problem is filling in the last member because it is usually a novice. While this isn't normally a problem its just that we need some consistency.
Fun fact here is how i predict the boats are gonna break down for finals. There will be a Lightweight 8 with James, Andrew,Karl, Dan, Mark, Pipp, Jim, John G. The Varsity 4 will be Matt, Neal, Cory, Me. I say that because The lightweight 8 is more competitive then the heavyweight 8 and it will create the best opportunities for the program. With that being said I don't think Neal is going to enjoy it because he probably feels that he is better then the boat he is in. I just hope that no one gets sour.
Ok so back to the racing weekend. When we finally head out I figure everybody will be just as modivated as me to get back in time to see the final four game. I was kinda right and kinda wrong at the same time. At one point we spent 30 mins getting gas and mcdonalds which is crazy for the fact we had free food on the site and plenty of it. During the van ride I had some fun conversations with Clair well till she passed out. So I told her one of my crew crushes which is kinda alot for me because I am usually not open about that stuff. It is kinda crazy because I felt like I was back in grade school like oh i told you a crush does she like me back. Like just get one of those pieces of paper where you check if you like me or not. Because I do not know about you but I like knowing when people like me.
Well I am just gonna stop here for now if you want to hear how the rest o the weekend went remind me and I will finish. I remember almost all of the party and most of Pipp's shinanigans.
Friday was pretty uneventful it was mostly wake up crew, sleep, class, crew, sleep early because I am a driver. So yeah whoever decided that we had to leave at 3 am to go to Ohio is crazy. So I got up to drive very early and I actually made it all the way to Columbus without any assistance from energy drinks or 5 hour stuff. Racing was well let me be blunt not good. This is just me speaking about my boats but coach has this tendency to put me in one boat that he knows will not do well but its whats best for the program. Example V8-2 with this you think oh another varsity 8 with some varsity and best novice. But the boat is always second string novice with a few left over varsity and its never good and usually gets flat out embarrassed. I am also in the varsity 4 which is a great boat 3 of us have been rowing it for a whole year. The problem is filling in the last member because it is usually a novice. While this isn't normally a problem its just that we need some consistency.
Fun fact here is how i predict the boats are gonna break down for finals. There will be a Lightweight 8 with James, Andrew,Karl, Dan, Mark, Pipp, Jim, John G. The Varsity 4 will be Matt, Neal, Cory, Me. I say that because The lightweight 8 is more competitive then the heavyweight 8 and it will create the best opportunities for the program. With that being said I don't think Neal is going to enjoy it because he probably feels that he is better then the boat he is in. I just hope that no one gets sour.
Ok so back to the racing weekend. When we finally head out I figure everybody will be just as modivated as me to get back in time to see the final four game. I was kinda right and kinda wrong at the same time. At one point we spent 30 mins getting gas and mcdonalds which is crazy for the fact we had free food on the site and plenty of it. During the van ride I had some fun conversations with Clair well till she passed out. So I told her one of my crew crushes which is kinda alot for me because I am usually not open about that stuff. It is kinda crazy because I felt like I was back in grade school like oh i told you a crush does she like me back. Like just get one of those pieces of paper where you check if you like me or not. Because I do not know about you but I like knowing when people like me.
Well I am just gonna stop here for now if you want to hear how the rest o the weekend went remind me and I will finish. I remember almost all of the party and most of Pipp's shinanigans.
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Music+Movie
Ok so I have noticed as of late that I always seem to get into a band right before they get popular or right after they fade away. Example Gravity Kills, good industrial band got all of there cds then i heard they broke up lame. Another example The Prodigy, I bought there greatest hits cd a few months ago after i heard Pendulum did a remix of one of there songs. Anyways yeah after that I found out they were making a new record which is sweet by the way check it out invaders must die. Then the original Nine Inch Nails I got into them when Trent took a break from music then bam he started back up again. So there the world must revolve around me. Now Opiate for the Masses just needs to hit the big time then I will be set.
On a side note why is cd always a misspelling on spell check.
So I saw monsters vs aliens today in the IMAX I liked it, I would recommend it, and I definatly want Stephen Colbert to play the president in more movies it suits him well.
On a side note why is cd always a misspelling on spell check.
So I saw monsters vs aliens today in the IMAX I liked it, I would recommend it, and I definatly want Stephen Colbert to play the president in more movies it suits him well.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Starting a trend
So yeah ever notice that the first blog anyone writes usually is pointless and has little good information. Just a fun fact to snack on. I really would like to say somethings but again its a new blog so most people won't read this or certain people will find it and be offended or curious. Oh that reminds me Does it offend you, yeah? is so freakin awesome every time i hear the new fast and the furious trailer I am just like woo. But now I am worried they will get too popular too fast then they become jerks. I had the joy to see them once they even mentioned me because I was singing lets make out (its there song).
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