So I decided to write another blog crazy I know but hear me out no really reads these so I will probably just end up bitching anyway.
I recently decided to watch the show Manswers, oh my god. It was one of those shows where all I could think was who's idea is this. I think it would be better suited as one of those websites like ebaumsworld.
On Saturday I talked to you know who. It was a mistake I did feel better but that is only because I got to let off a little bit of steam. It does really upset me though that someone is unphased by something that devastates me. This and the fact they seem to enjoy ignoring me and telling me things they come threw on. I don't think I would feel nearly as bad if I just had someone to spend time with but I don't. I can talk to a few people but it is pretty pointless I get blown off or they make me feel like I am the biggest creeper on the planet.
I recently got to talk with one of my real friends John. It was actually really nice to have a conversation with him. That really made me miss the school year when I had crew. It does bum me out when I think about it though because I am really only in it to row like the people there seem to be too much in a click to be real friends. I can see in a few years that I will probably end up not seeing or talking to most of them. Like what happened in High School Football.
I finished watching Spaced, let me just say it was an awesome show kinda reminded me of my life. I watched an episode of Breaking Bad, I liked it it is on my list to watch now.
Well I am going to try to sleep now wish me luck.
Monday, July 13, 2009
Thursday, July 9, 2009
About time
So I figure I have alot on my mind might as well right it down because I can't seem to find someone to talk to this stuff about.
First off on my list I am currently talking to someone who I never really talk to. We used to have a thing then they got kind of weird. Anyways all they seem to want to do is bitch about whats wrong in there life. It is pretty boring and random my boyfriend references but meh what are you gonna do.
Second so I was reading something I knew I shouldn't have a note written by shannon on facebook. It said Are you single? and her response was ...kind for now. At that moment it was just like uh... really. So yeah I have a feeling that I am going to want to hate the world even more in a matter of weeks or so. I just hate how this whole thing is going and how shitty it is making me feel. At least for a small period of time I had a friend who would talk to her for me.
Third on my list music. So as of late I have been trying to find new bands and stuff to hear. So far I have found some bitch'n tunes. First off I will go with Mew a Danish alternative band who aparently are amazing live. Next would be Nero http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rFVLAQWPBCI they are drum and bass I just like this tune. Then there is The Hoosiers with worried about ray, I found them due to Muselive stating the keyboardist was wearing spiderman at a live preformance like Dom used to. Then of course Pendulum there latest cover of calvin harris-Im not alone, I love that song listen to it love it. A band I just started to listen to Karnivool is sounding really good i need to get through there cd though i have not had the time yet.
Oh before I finish I think I was approached for a booty call but then she was like wait I have parents here maybe later this week. Personally I think she is just mad at her current estranged boyfriend. I also got invited to an event with her too but again all her friends would be there and I would find that a bit strange since i know no one.
I have got to figure out something that will work for me. Right now I am just so damn depressed all the time. Its like fuck I have friends we don't do much together but I have them. Its like I have alot of friends that I am not close with and like maybe 1 or 2 best friends but they are either too busy for me or just too well interesting of a character. I am getting really tired of being the nice guy just being like oh ok you are busy now or yeah we should definatly do something then getting blown off till they are like oh yeah we were suppose to hang. I am just like yeah I know just see me or don't tell me you want to and get my hopes up and waste my breath and time on you.
That last bit was a bit rantish anyways I should go to bed have to wake up to drive back to Howell have a guy hook up cable. Hopefully I can talk to him about getting an Iphone too I am curious if i want to take that plunge
First off on my list I am currently talking to someone who I never really talk to. We used to have a thing then they got kind of weird. Anyways all they seem to want to do is bitch about whats wrong in there life. It is pretty boring and random my boyfriend references but meh what are you gonna do.
Second so I was reading something I knew I shouldn't have a note written by shannon on facebook. It said Are you single? and her response was ...kind for now. At that moment it was just like uh... really. So yeah I have a feeling that I am going to want to hate the world even more in a matter of weeks or so. I just hate how this whole thing is going and how shitty it is making me feel. At least for a small period of time I had a friend who would talk to her for me.
Third on my list music. So as of late I have been trying to find new bands and stuff to hear. So far I have found some bitch'n tunes. First off I will go with Mew a Danish alternative band who aparently are amazing live. Next would be Nero http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=rFVLAQWPBCI they are drum and bass I just like this tune. Then there is The Hoosiers with worried about ray, I found them due to Muselive stating the keyboardist was wearing spiderman at a live preformance like Dom used to. Then of course Pendulum there latest cover of calvin harris-Im not alone, I love that song listen to it love it. A band I just started to listen to Karnivool is sounding really good i need to get through there cd though i have not had the time yet.
Oh before I finish I think I was approached for a booty call but then she was like wait I have parents here maybe later this week. Personally I think she is just mad at her current estranged boyfriend. I also got invited to an event with her too but again all her friends would be there and I would find that a bit strange since i know no one.
I have got to figure out something that will work for me. Right now I am just so damn depressed all the time. Its like fuck I have friends we don't do much together but I have them. Its like I have alot of friends that I am not close with and like maybe 1 or 2 best friends but they are either too busy for me or just too well interesting of a character. I am getting really tired of being the nice guy just being like oh ok you are busy now or yeah we should definatly do something then getting blown off till they are like oh yeah we were suppose to hang. I am just like yeah I know just see me or don't tell me you want to and get my hopes up and waste my breath and time on you.
That last bit was a bit rantish anyways I should go to bed have to wake up to drive back to Howell have a guy hook up cable. Hopefully I can talk to him about getting an Iphone too I am curious if i want to take that plunge
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